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Kazuma Asogi ([personal profile] chippedsoul) wrote2021-08-18 05:32 pm

The Journal [Inbox]

Use this for any IC one-on-one contact and finishing any loose ends at [community profile] songerein
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[personal profile] judicialassistant 2021-12-25 05:26 am (UTC)(link)
... [ No, of course he wouldn't. He is going to make her earn it, it seems, but at the very least, she feels prepared for it. Her notes are a comfort in that regard; her voice is firm and unwavering. ] Yes. I am.

[ She takes a pause for a shaky breath, because it doesn't matter how confident she is, this isn't an easy topic to breach by any stretch of the imagination. ]

It was... something that 76 told me while we were in the forest. Call it a moment of weakness if you like, but I... confessed to him that I thought you were hiding something. I didn't expect that he'd actually tell me, mind, but... he did tell me about how he got you back, that day you went after Lord van Zieks. About how he had to remind you that he cared for you, no matter what you'd done, that it didn't matter if you didn't think you deserved it. You had that.

And he thought father and I might have to do the same thing.

After that, I... I think it started to sink in. The short list of things that would make a proud and honorable man like you feel that much shame... combined with the voice that kept trying to tell me I was too late. [ ...His voice. ]
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[personal profile] judicialassistant 2021-12-25 05:27 am (UTC)(link)
...You... [ It's so difficult to keep her voice even. Even years of practice hardly prepared her for this, but she pushes through. ] You've... already done it, haven't you?

You came close with Inspector Gregson, but now, you've actually taken someone's life.
judicialassistant: (shock)

[personal profile] judicialassistant 2021-12-26 05:56 am (UTC)(link)
[ Several. Susato's breath catches, because clearly, even though she had figured out so much, she hadn't been expecting that. She swallows, then nods quietly in understanding as she processes the information. ]

I... both understand completely, because it explains so much, and I understand nothing at the same time. [ Is that... weird? Funny? It's absolutely not funny, why is there a part of her that feels a nervous laughter bubbling quietly below the surface...? Wishful thinking, perhaps? ]

Because... that still isn't the full story. [ Can't be. ]
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[personal profile] judicialassistant 2021-12-26 04:46 pm (UTC)(link)
[ This is cruel. The crippling guilt of seeing him this way is almost enough for her to relent, but as guilty as she feels, she knows he is feeling it that much worse, and for far longer. ]

You're right. It doesn't matter to me. [ But not because of any outcome that can't be changed. ] Because in all my life, I can't remember a time when I didn't look up to you, Kazuma-sama, and quite honestly--there is nothing you could tell me now that would change that.

[ The please goes unsaid, but hangs thick in the air. ]
Edited 2021-12-26 16:50 (UTC)
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[personal profile] judicialassistant 2021-12-26 06:09 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Susato shakes her head. He was not going to dismiss her just like that, not after she'd come this far. ]

I admire you for all that you are. [ Which she knows is more than that, even if it it doesn't feel like it to him. ] Then, now and forever.

I...
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[personal profile] judicialassistant 2021-12-27 07:29 am (UTC)(link)
[ Dear Gods, the one time she actually wanted Kazuma to shut up. For a moment, she does consider Ryunosuke, and what he might say to Kazuma at this moment. She’d like to think Ryunosuke would back her up on this, but it’s just Susato alone, and her feelings have never been clearer.

He wants a reminder? She’ll give him a reminder. ]


...I love you.

[ The flames of the fireplace, which may have felt colder up until then, flare with life. It’s unclear whether Susato notices… did she cause it, even? Either way, she appears far too calm for that.

In the next moment, she closes her notebook with all her Kazuma notes, and without another word, she tosses it into the fire. ]
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[personal profile] judicialassistant 2021-12-28 03:30 am (UTC)(link)
[ BETTER AT WHAT??? TONGUE TWISTERS????? That may as well have been his answer for how relevant it was. And trust, she treasured Ryunosuke and her Baker Street family dearly.

Now she has his attention. Whether it was what she said or what she did, it's hard to tell. Clearly she could have timed that better, but once she got the idea in her head, she didn't want to give herself a chance to waver. ]


I love you. [ She can say it Japanese, and probably several other languages if he prefers. ] Even if you don't think I should anymore, you don't get to make that decision.

...And if you were at all concerned I might tell someone, well... now you can worry less.
judicialassistant: (smile)

[personal profile] judicialassistant 2021-12-29 04:53 am (UTC)(link)
[ Perhaps it would be more accurate to say that she would stand by side, to ensure he would never have to take another life, ever again. At least, that is what she wants, desperately, but it feels too childish, too optimistic to say out loud. All she can do is smile up at him when he approaches, hoping the 'yes' is obvious as it feels. ]

It was always meant to be you and me, from the very beginning. [ Perhaps it was fate that has given them a second chance here in Reverein, but that feels too childish to say, too. ] But in order for me to stand by your side, you must also stand by mine.

[ In other words, he needs to stop trying to shelter her so much and start trusting her instead. Is he ready to do that? She stands too now, rising to his level as much has her height allows. ]
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[personal profile] judicialassistant 2021-12-30 02:57 am (UTC)(link)
...!

[ For a moment, Susato is legitimately concerned that he had fainted. Being afraid her weight wouldn't support him, she'd come dangerously close to a misstep, but she catches herself in time, thus catching him as well. Luck was on her side that her legs didn't melt right underneath her in that moment. She lets out a quiet gasp, but it quickly became a breath of relief as everything falls into place. ]
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[personal profile] judicialassistant 2021-12-30 02:58 am (UTC)(link)
[ For a while, she can't bring herself to say anything. She feels like she's on the verge of tears, and she doesn't want to ruin this moment she worked so hard for. She just closes her eyes, taking in the scent of the comforting warm breeze emanating from Kazuma as she holds him close.

There is still something missing, of course. Answers only he can give.

But for now, her burning curiosity will just have to wait. ]
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[personal profile] judicialassistant 2021-12-30 05:03 am (UTC)(link)
[ ...It was already late when she came over, she knew. She was slowly developing a taste for night life, ever since that forest outing last month. While she would have had no trouble walking home, she'd like to think his invitation meant he wanted her to stay... that he wanted her company, which is always a nice feeling. ]

I shall cook breakfast... as I assume it is still the easiest way to get you up in the morning.

[ Some things never change. ]

We have some work ahead of us.
judicialassistant: (smile)

[personal profile] judicialassistant 2022-01-01 02:24 am (UTC)(link)
[ Because he would know all about Ryunosuke's sleeping habits, wouldn't he...? Psh. As if she doesn't, after living with him for so long. Regardless, the tired expression earns him sympathy, and a matching smile. ]

...My apologies also. Perhaps if I had been patient, I could have gleaned the information more delicately. But... something told me "straight talking" would be more effective.

[ Gosh. Wonder where she heard that term used before? ]

It was worth it... in any case. I don't regret it for a moment.
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[personal profile] judicialassistant 2022-01-01 04:08 am (UTC)(link)
[ And yet... he has yet to tell her the most important part. Perhaps that was her fault, though; she should have pressed him when she had the momentum. Either way, she knows he isn't the type to make excuses for his actions, which were already weighing on him quite a bit... so perhaps the progress they have made is enough. For now.

He did ask for patience, after all.

She feels his hand slide down to her wrist, and for a moment she enjoyed briefly feeling like she was seven again, being guided by him. Then she twists her hand over slightly, so that she can hold his. ]


Thank you. [ For vowing to try, mainly, but...the room. Yeah. ] It will do just fine. I don't want you to worry about me.

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